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2008...

Thanx For The Memories.
Take Care And Good Bye.


2009...

A New Chapter Of My Life.
Everything Will Be Alright.

穿越

曾经，好久好久以前，有个人听过一个笑话，一个很好笑很好笑，一个甚至可以让他忘记一切，可以让他也忘了为什么会那么喜欢那个笑话的笑话。
日子的流逝，某天某时无意中听回这个笑话，突然，有一种不一样的感觉


曾经，好久好久以前，有个人很喜欢一个歌队，很喜欢听这个歌队的所有歌，后来，他长大了，忘记了这个歌队的存在过。
日子的流逝，某天他无意中在一辆车的收音机听到此歌队的其中一首歌，突然，有种很熟悉亲切的但又很陌生的感觉


曾经，好久好久以前，有个人对著他自己也有对著很多人打下承诺，小小的承诺有，大大的承诺也有。经过一段时间，有些承诺他当然有实现，有些他却忘记了。
日子的流逝，他突然回想起这一切承诺，他感觉得...

白色圣诞节 Absolute YES!!!

就甘，08圣诞节已过去了
今年圣诞也怪怪的感觉但其实也很开心
前日同今日我地一家人分别都有庆祝，沉日就同班朋友去1u玩
人本来都是奇怪，我同班亲戚庆祝时，甘多亲戚朋友，可能是年纪问题，我同亲戚们的话题总是隔住一层膜，同他们我讲不出废话笑，只有客气话。可能，在区地眼中我只有正经的角色。 反而同一班道合的朋友我每一次都可以做翻自己。
沉日，我同班朋友行街，吃饭有讲有笑，睇戏交换礼物。记得上一次交换礼物的我好吾好彩抽到一条无理底裤，唉...甘次衷好笑，抽到一支剪刀，吾知要来做么？摆靓？
跟住，我就同两个朋友睇YES Man，一套我好期待的笑片。片中有一幕真真令我笑到好开心好开心，好可惜，除左个幕，其他的笑话都属于认真类笑话，可能阿占真是老左，毋以前的笑片甘搞笑左。话虽如此，但是我系这套戏学到好多真是道理的道理，学到几句名言（我毋记错应该就是甘）
‘YES is the new No!’
‘You say NO to life, you say NO to opportunity, your life has NOTHING at all!’
原来，一句话，就是那么的一句话，竟然可以影响好多好多，改变到一生。因此，我认为，这套戏都好值得下去睇
其实讲来讲去，都要讲翻一句重要到可以影响你一生的话： YES!!!

似水流年

世事难料
烦躁？工作； 绝望？枪手；失望？红军枪手战评判；疲倦？一切
在一个没注意的时刻... 突然，听见回一首陈年的歌，一位已故的歌手的作品，一首当年曾当红一时的歌
蔚蓝的天空，此时此刻，有一种很松弛却带有悲哀思念的感觉产生

回忆中的世界

很多时候，矛盾与愚蠢总是人类的特性
不想要最后却不舍得；不愿意最后却后悔；不珍惜最后却耿耿于怀；
不懂做什么，今天的我过得很奇怪... 从早上开始，我脑子里一直回转着前四天的每一幕，就好像一部电影般，放映--倒退--重播--; 每一幕... 每一人... 每一刻...； 别人与我讲话，我无法专心听... 就连旁晚工作完后，一身疲倦的我，身体明明很累，头脑却仍然继续
顿时，我觉得自己好矛盾；渐渐，我开始害怕了
原来，我在舞蹈学会里有一种很特别感觉了，我开始爱上这一种感觉；由始至终，我仍然不舍得一帮好朋友离开；也可能，以后我会更不舍得离开中华
我开始明白，我选择舞蹈学会，是对的；我选择参与集训营，是对的；我选着高三，也是对的
离开的朋友们，伤感是无法解决...不过,我也会尝试接受,因为我相信一句‘分离是为了下一次的相聚’
我也知道... 无论多遥远，无论某年某月某日某时某分某秒，无论什么地方什么场面什么气氛，终究大伙儿还是会再见;

2009年，我的愿望是... 更珍惜每一人每一刻，更美好的生活，还有更美丽与更完美的中学生涯结局

两首歌 一份感动 一次回忆 一页辛酸 四天校营

So here I am with my thoughts of you

And this world I've left for me
Stoic faces when I think of you
And how I once believed
So now you call me, but you know I won't let you through
I've myself to decieve

So leave the memories alone
I don't want to see
The way it is, as to how it used to be
Leave the memories alone, don't change a thing
And I'll hold you here in my memory

So I find me in your garden now
A sad smile for the scene
And all the flowers that we planted now
Taken by the weeds
But in my minds eye, you know they still bloom for me
They stand tall there, in that summer breeze

Leave the memories alone
I don't want to see
The way it is, as to how it used to be
Leave the memories alone, don't change a thing
And I'll just hold you here in my memory

In my memory, yeah

So leave the memories alone
I don't want to see
The way it is, as to how it used to be
Leave the memories alone, don't change a thing
And I'll hold you in my memory

You'll never change
You'll never change
You'll never change
You will never change

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause something changed
You've been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that I ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I seeing myself so differently
I didn't wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought I'd say
I'm fine
Without you

Called you up cause it's been long enough
And you said that you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together

Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And it's taken it's toll on me
It's safe to say that I'm ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I seeing myself so differently
I didn't wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
I'm fine,
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
I just wanna be alone tonight,
I just wanna take a little breather.

Fuel / Hinder

一把雨伞给这天用

也许所有的考验，痛到极限就会超越
曾经，我责问自己一个解答不了问题：‘相同是认识的，分别是学会会员与同班同学，为什么自己偏偏是与相处时间比较少的学会会员比较熟识与密切？’
可能，今年就是他们所谓的最后一年
因此，我尝试融入他们，同班的朋友们，我选择跟随去班旅。为什么？我也不晓得，可能就是不想所谓的无聊遗憾产生
起初，我以为酱会是纳闷收场。感到安慰的是，我猜错了
这一次的班旅,让彼此间更了解与关心对方，短短的3天2夜，大家也有欢快过，惊恐过，关心过，废话过，也甚至争执过,相互平分勇气...这一切，成为了摩擦不走的美丽的回忆...大伙儿，也因如此增进了感情。让我，也跟他们癫在一起。
可能，一段感情需要经过考验，才能变得巩固
只能用一句说服：
命里有时终需要
命里无时莫强求

高二文商信班，也就这样美丽地划上永远的句号...

1 再见 6

Well, turn 17 after today! (FUCK!:D)
Today is last day of 16, unforgettable? Yes. Why? Because today is a totally f*****-up day for me. Sigh...
Today's exam is bookkeeping.
Somebody thought it was just a piece of cake.
Unfortunately, he was wrong.
Unfortunately, the somebody was ME.
The second question of the paper extremely shocked everybody (definitely), including our Chong Hwa genius bookkeeping teacher (definitely, maybe).
Club (wtf!!!). Oh my God, I let go of my 20 marks for nothing. Alright, I never let go like this before, truly... it really upset me deeply.
Bla Bla Bla... Well, there are some other more f*****-up stuff happen to me on my very-special-last-day-of-16 day, maybe i'll write them here some day.
Okay, I just carry on living my life.
Just like Mr. Koonu said:" When life gives you lemons, just said 'fuck the lemons' and bail. "


By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

奔跑

不知不觉，这场战争也过了一半，暂时打完了九场中的六场伤痕累累，三场？加油了：）
欣慰也温馨。对我来说，每当考试中面对着一大堆压力，背负着一天欲一天重的剑时候，突然得到一些朋友或老师的祝福打气，即使是一句话或者一封短讯‘加油’，却对我而言是很善意的一种匹莱深。至少也代表着，考试也带有着希望与寄托。浓浓的苦涩中，却有时也带有香甜味。
浓浓的弥漫夜色，忘了头顶上的月亮。静夜，没有言语的天空，只是静静地隐藏着答案。
只想着：时间会永远停留吗？还是始终要远飞离开？

Against all odd, Arsenal still end up dropping points. Frustrated by a aggravating home defeat to Aston Villa, and stay fourth on the team ranking. Whatever else it is, nothing is impossible.

愿望 Dare To Dream

I Pray.

I Work Hard.

I Hope.

I Believe.

I Wish Upon The Stars.

一份响往，一份追求

从年头就被恐吓得政考，没料到真的来了

政府考试，一些人说易如反掌，一些人却否认，往往真正的原理就是被卡在中间；可能，考试只不过是一种评估，或者也可以说是学习进度中的考验，要好要坏其实就在于自己一念之间而有所改变...

很多时候总是心有余而力不足，不敢完全漠视于国中批改师，也不能对国中轻视，期望愈高，失望更高。虚拟的程式安排，有时候真实；有时候，却还是虚拟...

一切只会让人无奈地苦笑

再一次的告别

光阴似箭，不知不觉再不久今年就会成为历史了... 思今追昔，虽念高三，却失去了一大班好知己，忆起如黄粱一梦般的经历，感叹... 以往与一些朋友的每一次告别时，却没料到其实就是真正的告别的临近。有人说人生如一场梦，若一颗流星相当于一个愿望，那天上夜空中的星星就是回忆，美丽的传说始终为传说，但它却能带给我们寄托；告别后，以往的回忆只能待回味；破晓后仍然是生命里的新的起绽...

对于明年离开中华的朋友，千言万语说之不尽，惟独那一句：再见！！！

梦谈

浓浓的夜色，带动着丝丝的冷却，蓝夜吊挂着巨大的影子，遮盖了地上而形成暗漆漆一片，农夫归家，小贩收档，孩子进房，狗儿也进入甜梦中了... 弯弯雪白的月亮，凄清的夜空... 宁静...

夜梦，每半小时更换改变，有人说梦是记载着人生的记忆；有人说梦是明天的预兆；也有人说梦是人生的思念；当然，有人同意，也有人否认... 不同的内容，不同的意思，很多时候让人半途中从梦惊醒，朦胧了好一阵子，才认得回自己...

夜梦的结束，便是人生新的旅程，新一天开始，很多时候都无法想起前一晚的梦；不过也有些时候，深刻地印象却也让人不断回想着... 梦，出现的回忆、情景、甚至是完全的陌生人...

终究从回忆

云层... 我仰首凝望你，好像发现... 你似悲伤地飘着，渐渐地飘走离开，不留任何痕迹，尽管怎样，你总是泰然自若地沉着，是你闲情逸致的，还是说谎的假扮。

猛烈的太阳，将地上的所有一草一木、大型小型汽车、如瀑布般流着汗的行人的影子拉得长长，萧然蠕动...

一阵阵的风儿，我为此停歇半响，四处的宁静，让我静静的聆听风儿的流动，小心翼翼，它似在告诉着所有真相，似怂恿着未来的预兆... 风吹落了最后一片叶，也渐渐地告别了，独自完成剩下的工作，诗意儿美丽，却残酷。

终究，从回忆中慢慢穿越，我也无法明白这一切...

有机

彩虹去了，有再出现的时候；嫩叶枯了，有再青的时候；樱花谢了，有再开的时候。却，机会为什么一去不复返？

空虚里算著，上千多机会已经从我手中溜走，命运所安排的良机... 却与我擦身而过；就好比一玉石扔进蓝海中，除了那么的一声水声，影子也渐渐消失；再也不会回归。

如一场梦般的纸牌游戏，好运给了你完美一盘，却不珍惜而忽略了，到头来也成为懊悔，命运也似在渐渐地摇头微笑，就只记载着‘辛酸’。这是个聪明的经验，却又是一个愚蠢的事实...

望着一次又一次的机会擦身离去，渐渐远去...

顿时醒悟了，原来由始至终我仍然站在歧路中摸黑，碰触不了一切照顾，我只能希望... 现在不会太迟...

Yesterday A Hero. Today A Legend.

'Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today.' James Dean (1931-1955)

'When I die, my money's not gonna come with me. My movies will live on for people to judge what I was as a person. I just want to stay curious.' Heath Ledger (1979-2008)

'Wanting to be somebody else is a waste of the person you are.' 'I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.' Kurt Cobain (1967-1994)

如果两种人，一种是拥有短暂但辉煌的生命，另一种是拥有既长寿又满足的生活的话，你会选择做哪一种？？？

人，可能可以预算自己的未来多灿烂，但却不能预算自己能否好好享受这些‘灿烂’。世事难料，对一些人，可能短暂的生命中能完成所有愿望，或许下一刻他就撒手人世，已足够。

死，不一定可能最痛苦；走向白光可能也总比在恐怖的黑暗中徘徊得好；

有几个艺人，一生中只有短暂的生活，但却留给人世无尽的思念，人虽然不存在，但寄托却仍然旋转在世上的每一个角落，就如成为不朽般

最伤心的是，就是活生生时却被世人遗忘；所以宁愿选择离开人世，完成最后一场英雄梦

some one else moved in from far away.

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,

we used to love while others used to play.

Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,

some one else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small, and you don't ask the time of day.

But you and I, our love will never die, but guess we'll cry come first of May.

The apple tree that grew for you and me, I watched the apples falling one by one.

And I recall the moment of them all, the day I kissed your cheek and you were mine.

Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,

and you don't ask the time of day.

But you and I, our love will never die, but guess we'll cry come first of May.

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,

do do do do do do do do do...

Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by, some one else moved in from far away.

二等天使

预试也派完了；心也渐渐重了；SPM也近在眼前了；不是小孩子玩泥沙般那么儿戏；

意想不到，这样在中华就快过了五年了；最近，不知道为什么，SPM愈靠近，感觉在中华时间好像不多了；每一次坐在自己的位子上，头情不自禁往右转看，望着窗外的一草一木，青青的每一片叶子，活泼的鸟儿飞跃，蔚蓝的天空，微弱的阳光还有些低阴的乌云，自己不知不觉就好像回想起自己在中华的以往一切；从报考中华到第一次年中/终大考，从第一次大考到PMR/初中统考，从PMR/初中统考到留级补考，留级补考也就到了现在的SPM，感觉好像那么的昨天才发生。每一幕都不断在脑海中播映。

其实自己还没有那股心情高二毕业，并不习惯脱离中华的日子，但其实自己也清楚高三与大学的不同点；高二毕业不一定是坏，但继续在中华也不可能是弊；总之就是个关键的决定

You always say the things

I can believe in

Always say the things

I wanna hear I believe them all - the stories short and tall

I believe you, ya I believe you

You give me love

When love is all I need to live

You gave your word, when words were just superlative

When I was blind, you came and opened up my eyes

Now I feel I can believe in anything

You taught me how to fly on broken wings

You always do the things I can depend on

You're always there every night and day

Everytime i've fallen down - you've always been around

To lift me up again

To set me straight again

Sometimes I find myself on my own

And can't find the road that leads me back home

But you made believe I can do anything

Even fly on broken wings